Well, I just had myelf a good cry. I wish it was about my ED. I WISH it was something that simple. Where it would only be my issue. But nope...
The news does a pretty good job at giving people the blues. You know, those stories about rapes and murders, car thefts and what-not. But as much as I hate those stories, I didn't want to see a video of a little boy who was hit with shrapnel in Syria. He was just a little guy, in his home with his family and one of those damned bombs hit nearby and just. It showed him stuggling to breath as people tried to help him. Then they stopped trying and it was kind of obvious... That little boy was going to die... For no reason. And his dad was holding him after he was gone and just.... Just horrific.
How many children died like that? Scared to death, knowing they were dying and in horrible pain. Without any medical attention able to come and help. Millions, Billions. God... Just seeing the dad holding his son and asking "Why?" ... I just...don't understand. I know it's a cruel world... but why do so many innocent children die? Starving to death, or caught in the cross-fire of war. Murdered, abducted, abused, raped.
How can everyone else Myself included, be so ignorant to it all? I feel like such a horrible person. I feel like the scum of the earth and I don't even have enough money to donate to help them. My family is at the poverty line and I'm always wishing for more.
At least I can eat. And even I don't do that. I starved myself to lose pounds, and they're begging for scraps to gain some.
At least I don't have to worry about where I'm going to sleep at night, or being scared that the bombs are getting too close. I feel so shallow and horrible.
So...yeah. I would just thought I'd share. I had to tell someone about that poor little boy. I don't even know his name... Why didn't the News people at least try to find out his name? God...
