Good Bye

I've hit a kind of brick wall and realized... What am I doing to myself? This can't be healthy. What normal person eats 400 calories one day and 4000 the next? It's horrible. I've tried to go healthy before, but I think to truely get there, I need to get rid of my vices. So I'm going to delete this blog, My second facebook, my prettythin account and delete all of the thinspo from my computer. I just want to be normal, so I have to act normal.

This is my last post. I wish all of you well. Good bye.

So many repeats.

Hey. It's been a while since I've posted on here, truth be told I only just remembered it the other day. Which is just weird when you think about it considering how far down the shoot my eating habits have tumbled again.

I'm okay. Fat, but okay. I'm steadily losing weight again, probably only because this time I've given myself a time line. I only have until April, that's when my friend and I are going to the coast. I'm not going to visit the ocean and be mistaken for a beached whale. Already I've lost 6 pounds in about a week and a half. I'm hoping for another 15-20 pounds which should be okay, I still have over 7 weeks before we leave. I just need to keep this motivation up. I'm hopeful, this is the most consistent I've been in a long time so I'm confident that I'll reach that goal. =)

To help myself along, I took a picture in a shirt I've never been able to wear, and some cute jeans my sister gave me that are too small. I'm hoping soon I can retake the picture in the same clothes when they fit.

Behold, the horror.