Sunday, May 27, 2012

Fasting

I'm well into day3 of my fast. I'll tell you what, I feel sick. Sick and achey and tired, ugh. I just want to go eat something, anything. Even the full fat meat extravaganza my mom made for breakfast.

I didn't though. And when I do break the fast, I'm going to use liquids and soup the first day, and work my way up. I'd kill for some top ramen right now. -sigh-

So yeah. I'm down 5 pounds since I started. Not bad for only three days. 15 more pounds to go.... someone shoot me please. -sigh-

Saturday, May 26, 2012

Report Time

okay. I'm closing in on the 48 hour mark in my fast. I think tomorrow is going to be the hardest day, today's been pretty easy actually. I felt sick once because I took my multivitamin on an empty stomach, but that went away after a few minutes and I'm happily sucking back water and diet dr pepper.

If I'm not too tired tomorrow, I'm going to try some pushups. Nothing big, I doubt I'll even want to get out of bed, lol.

As of now, I'm down 2 pounds...but i weigh in the morning and I haven't weighed myself with my clothes off, so It might be three by now? I don't know. Point is, it's working like it should.

Edit: 4 pounds in two days. Fuck yeah 

Friday, May 25, 2012

I'm back bitches

Finally. Not just the blog, but in my control. I haven't had a calorie in 24 hours. I'm going to try for three days, (I have appetite suppressants). An once I get there, if my hunger goes away I'm going to fast until June 10th. That's my birthday.
I'm tired of this crap. Always eating, thinking about food. It's because I'm bored. I live in the country without a car...not much to do but eat, you know? I'm reading more and stuff so that's helped take my mind off of food. So far so good.

I'll be updating how much I've lost. And if it's a decent amount by the time I break my fast, I'll start posting my weight on here again. Right now, I'm too ashamed.

No, to the people who are actually reading this. I missed you guys.
I saw your comment, Mango, lol, yes you were able to post it.

Hm, let's see. New stuff in my life... Pretty much nothing. Haha. I've been growing my hair our. I got a tan up by the lake... Ugh. It was fun and all, but I felt horrible the whole time. It was super hot, so I wore shorts for the first time in a year and my legs.....wow. Nothing but solid fat. Ew ew ew. I can't even look at the pictures. -rubs head-

So yeah. Last time I truly saw how fat I was, I lost 50 pounds. Now seeing how my legs look, I'm kick starting myself our of the binging I've been doing. I'd rather eat nothing than 4000 calories a day like I've been doing.

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Merry-go-round

That's what my family life feels like. Just going around and around. Dad was an ass, mom took off, gee, it's been almost two months since it last happened. -.-;;

It's 9 at night and mom finished dinner. yeah, it's late, so what? Don't be a total scum dick about it. Don't make my mother feel like you'd be better off with a new wife because you're eating at 9.

God damn he's such a fucking asshole. I hate him sometimes.

Sunday, May 6, 2012

Onward (pics)

HI everyone! Some news.
1. I talked to amber finally and I don't hate her... as much i guess. She seemed happy even if she rushed into this and is now living in a trailer on her folks yard...whatever.

2. I've got a pagan thing coming up (i know most of you are Christian so i wont go into it ^.^) The point is, I'm going to do a two week detox to get ready. No meat, no dairy. Only water, tea, fruits and vegetables. More yoga. In addition to detoxing, maybe it'll help me kick my weight loss back into gear.

3.....I MISSED STAR WARS DAY NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Oh well, May the 4th be with you. heehee

4. SUPER MOON!! omg, did yu guys see it?! It was amazing last night (the 5th) I got some pictures, here!!


This is me. I didn't alter this picture, isn't that moon sooo bright? I love it. =)


Well, hm, what else what else... I'm going to see the Avengers....oops, I mean the Hunger Games. Ugh -,- My friends got me a free ticket, so I'm going with them to see the hunger games, I'd MUCH rather see the Avengers. Comic movies trump almost anything else for me ...I'm a nerd I know.


 
Well, this is me now. Hm...I can't think of anything else for today. Havea god one you guys!