...yup............My parents need to get divorced.....they just need to end it. You know it's true when the child can even see that there's absolutely no love in the house any more.
But my mom wont because she refuses to find a job to support herself and he wont because he's dyslexic and needs her to file his taxes.
SO instead they fight over the bed (which something got spilled on) and apparently they can't share the two couches in the living room. That's right. There's two couches and she wont let him sleep on one of them. If the time comes when i can't even share TWO couches with my husband, I'm just going to end it. Because that's not a healthy relationship.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Sunday, January 23, 2011
America today
You know...My mother made fish for dinner. Fish and french fries. Fish and chips...whatever. Sitting across from my brother while he eats is the perfect reason to not eat...
Using his fingers he picked up two fries, before he finished chewing them, another two, still he hasn't swallowed. Another two. Then he sucks three of his fingers and swallows what he'd open mouth chewed. Like cud.
Then his picks his fork up....wrong, might i add. And just uses it to hold his fried fish in place while he rips off the end...which he then picks up with his fingers and shoves into his mouth....two more fries, three more fries.
Is it too hard for him to chew with his mouth shut?
He sucks on his fingers again, three of them...only now the other hand.
Now he's picking at the last of he crumbs. This is all happening as I'm typing this...it disgusts me. He just picked up the whole fried fish with his hand and took a bite without his fork. Like it's a poptart or something. I don't know how he can do it....wow dave what the fuck. He just hit the kitten in it's ear when it came up to him, like he was scared it would take his food. It's good motivation, both to not eat and to make sure any kids i have in the future know how to use a damned fork.
Chew chew chew chew chew his mouth's hanging open as he does it. URG GROSS
Using his fingers he picked up two fries, before he finished chewing them, another two, still he hasn't swallowed. Another two. Then he sucks three of his fingers and swallows what he'd open mouth chewed. Like cud.
Then his picks his fork up....wrong, might i add. And just uses it to hold his fried fish in place while he rips off the end...which he then picks up with his fingers and shoves into his mouth....two more fries, three more fries.
Is it too hard for him to chew with his mouth shut?
He sucks on his fingers again, three of them...only now the other hand.
Now he's picking at the last of he crumbs. This is all happening as I'm typing this...it disgusts me. He just picked up the whole fried fish with his hand and took a bite without his fork. Like it's a poptart or something. I don't know how he can do it....wow dave what the fuck. He just hit the kitten in it's ear when it came up to him, like he was scared it would take his food. It's good motivation, both to not eat and to make sure any kids i have in the future know how to use a damned fork.
Chew chew chew chew chew his mouth's hanging open as he does it. URG GROSS
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Friggin why?
My sister turned seventeen the other day and she's in love with underwear, so I decided to get get a gift card to Victoria's Secret.....
That was probably the most awkward store I've ever been in. The lady in front of me took forever so I stood there, towering over everyone and feeling like a cow. The lady behind the register, sure, was obese, but all the costumers weren't. All of the posters on the walls made me feel like it was a crime to be 155 pounds. To have scars on your face, imperfect hair and/or makeup and to be wearing anything above a two. =(
That's the freaking ironic thing though, My thighs are now officially smaller than my little sister...but i stil feel huge. I hate this. HATE it!
-sigh- Well...anyway after I got out of there she loved the gift card, that's what matters. =)
That was probably the most awkward store I've ever been in. The lady in front of me took forever so I stood there, towering over everyone and feeling like a cow. The lady behind the register, sure, was obese, but all the costumers weren't. All of the posters on the walls made me feel like it was a crime to be 155 pounds. To have scars on your face, imperfect hair and/or makeup and to be wearing anything above a two. =(
That's the freaking ironic thing though, My thighs are now officially smaller than my little sister...but i stil feel huge. I hate this. HATE it!
-sigh- Well...anyway after I got out of there she loved the gift card, that's what matters. =)
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Warning signs
Every time I've gotten up today, My vision has blacked out and I got very light headed. It's irking me a bit because I just had a sandwich three hours ago. -shrug- I haven't passed out yet, so it's whatever. It might be because I need some water? I haven't had any today(shame on me) I'll go get some and see how I feel. I'm keeping all this shit to myself, since my family thinks I'm going to look funny if i keep losing. Right....I'd rather look funny skinny then with rolls, so they can deal with it. Peace out girl scout.
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Huzzah!!
My laptop has been out of commission for EVER and finally I got a new cord for it today so I'm back on all set up and what not. I had been able to get online, but only on my moms desktop which everyone in the room could see. So for obvious reasons I didn't update here lol.
So let's see, what's new...I'm 156 again, big fat fail, but I'll go down soon. Just a matter or will power. I bought a cute pair of boots that should be here sometime around Wednesday, I'm so excited to get them.
My sister's almost 17....that's about it. Lol byebye
So let's see, what's new...I'm 156 again, big fat fail, but I'll go down soon. Just a matter or will power. I bought a cute pair of boots that should be here sometime around Wednesday, I'm so excited to get them.
My sister's almost 17....that's about it. Lol byebye
Saturday, January 1, 2011
A new Year
Hello loves. Well it's January first. 1/1/11, epic. At 11:11 I'm going to make a wish.
Anyway, I met my goal weight for midnight last night, 155 pounds. I want to get to 150 by my baby sisters birthday on the 18th, but we'll see I guess. It's a brand new year, I have 6 months before I turn 22. In the past 6 months, from when I turned 21, I have lost 40 pounds. So, it only makes sense that in the same amount of time, I can lose 30 more pounds, right? I hope so. Once I do that, I'll be happy....I hope.....
I'm home alone, my family is four hours away having a late Christmas with my favorite grandparents. I wasn't able to go because I'm sick and they would catch it. So I made them a DVD with me apologizing and acting silly and all that lol. I hope they like it.
That's about all for now. Love you all, stay safe. <3
Anyway, I met my goal weight for midnight last night, 155 pounds. I want to get to 150 by my baby sisters birthday on the 18th, but we'll see I guess. It's a brand new year, I have 6 months before I turn 22. In the past 6 months, from when I turned 21, I have lost 40 pounds. So, it only makes sense that in the same amount of time, I can lose 30 more pounds, right? I hope so. Once I do that, I'll be happy....I hope.....
I'm home alone, my family is four hours away having a late Christmas with my favorite grandparents. I wasn't able to go because I'm sick and they would catch it. So I made them a DVD with me apologizing and acting silly and all that lol. I hope they like it.
That's about all for now. Love you all, stay safe. <3
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