O.O

.........I don't even know how I'm feeling right now, GOD.

Okay, first today stated out lamish, just little stuff, then it got better, cause that's how the cookie crumbles you know? Anyway, My boss called...yeah after like 3 months of not working. Well it turns out he only called me in for a shift because my dad ended up having a talk with him...fml.

Okay well, i get over that, cause it's money I didn't have before, then I get online and see a post from my friend.....Now, Remember my ex, Colin? The Jehovah's Witness and how he did the door-to-door thing? Ok WELL, my friend Amber went on and on and ON about how different their religions were...Well today she said she just finished going door-to-door asking people if they wanted bible studies in some trailor park by our homes...

Ok, for anyone who does that, I'm sorry, stop reading, whatever, but I can not STAND people who do that. Wtf dude, that's intrusion and ....And... ARG GOD DAMN. Okay, okay maybe it's just because I already HATE Ambers guts. She's a little bitch and said either me and my friends stop drinking or she's not hanging with us anymore...Yeah, she seriously gave us an ultimatum. Some friend. I'm...just....So fucking done with Jesus freaks, you have no idea. Organized religion is never coming back into my life again. I love Jesus, and God, just not the people who take it way too far. Sorry if I offended anyone, but holy crap....ho-ly crap.

-deep breath-

Anyway. I binged all week and didn't gain anything. My one high point for this post. Bye.

Magic Cookie

Yes...that kind of cookie. I had one today and my head is still spinning a bit. I had to put down a book I was really into because one page took me half an hour. my sister had one too, her bf was already flying. So it's like oh boy...I was so stupid for the past few hours. like, 1+1=fish type dumb.

ZZZzzzZZZ

Okay, so for the past few nights I haven't been getting any sleep. I'm talking less than 3 hours. It SUCKED I felt horrible and run down and achy and just generally blah. Last night though I hit the pillow and was out cold. I slept almost 10 hours, it was amazing.

Lol. Just thought I'd say something.

I'm a Robot now. Great.

So my mom and I were watching "coming home" and I was half reading a book and with only like 15 minutes to go, she looks at me when I put my book down and goes "I turned it, I figured you didn't want to watch it." I was like...okay? so I nodded once and gave her a funny look and she goes. "I mean heaven forbid you show any human emotion"
    Of course my scouring the web and new stations for information on japan and almost crying for them doesn't count i guess. I guess being a bitch to me is one of her new hobbies. I hate this, i wish i had the money i need to move out. She's the reason I gained five pounds too, because she doesn't ask me but makes me food then yells at me unless I eat it. I'm so tired of this shit.

Another Rant

You know, sometimes it astounds me how irrational some people get over an opinion. My mother and I were watching "What Would You Do?" on tv, and this particular episode was about teens getting botox. Okay, that's bad and all, but my mom starts going off on a few teen girls in the background who were watching while they got their nails done.

While she was ranting about how they shouldn't be doing that, I told her that their mothers thought differently then she did and she flipped out and asked if I would let my daughter get her nails done when she was 14.

I said, pft, yeah. Why not it's part of being a girl and it boosts self esteem. Then you know what she did?

She acted like I was a bad person. She said "Wow, really? you'd let them be little hoochies at school? I expected a little better from you but I guess I was wrong."

Hm.....so in saying I'd let my teenage girls paint their nails, I am destined to be a bad mother/person. Thank you mother, oh so much. Not only did you refuse to have a normal conversation, but you insulted me at the same time. And you wonder why I so rarely spend time with you, maybe when you can act like a reasonable adult we can carry on a good talk.

K? until then mom, you can bite me.

the morning after

I'm feeling better this morning, my hip hurts like hell and it bruised nastily, but I do feel better. I think the sleep helped majorly. God forbid I passout like, on the couch or anything, right? Lol, noooooo has to b on the hardwood kitchen floor. fml.

My first black out

I haven't eaten in..16 hours. I got up to get something to drink and felt funny. =( I woke up on the kitchen floor just a few minutes ago and my hip is killing me. That's the first time I ever passed out, it scared the shit out of me.

Everybody poops

I swear it's my new favorite book, Lol, I read it online and was like.....wow.
Anyway, I'm 157 today,I was 158, but then i went to the bathroom, I just love when that happens, hah.

I'm going to church with my grandparents on Sunday. I wanted to say no, but my grandpa's so adorable/cool/cute and he looked so crushed when i said no last time so I said yes. He got so happy that he said we'd all go out for lunch after too. He's a good guy, but my grandma's nuts and they go to a Baptist church, which is the church my OTHER grandma left because they told her she had to baptize my mom to stay on the committee and mom didn't wanna get it done yet. Plus I've been looking into other stuff, lol Wicca, Buddhism, spiritual stuff. Now SHUSH! If you're gonna slam me, just know I know there's a god, and Jesus is in my heart, but the Christian religion is driving me insane. I don't want to join (maybe) Wicca to dance around in a circle at midnight, I like the natural healing and herbs and stuff they do. And With Buddhism I like how mellow al those people are. They know how to appreciate life and all that cool stuff. I'm probably not going to join either of them, but I'm gonna take pointers from them. Meditation, burning herbs to relax or cleanse a room before sending up some prayers to God.

The sad thing is, I wouldn't be able to do what I want if I stayed with my boyfriend, who is still not talking to me after 4 months of my breaking it off. -shrug- He was freakin' on edge when I bought a Pilates kit.I made the mistake of telling him it was like fast paced yoga because THEN i had to explain it wasn't like yoga is any religious or spiritual sense, only the breathing and some of the movements. That it was JUST an exercise. And he was still freaked out about it.

Also, girls, never ever date a guy of a different religion of background if they tell you to NEVER look up anything about it and only stick to the websites they gave to you. A normal person would want you to look through the good and the bad and come to your own choice, you know? I really need to date a normal person, damn.

Anyway, this is dragging on long enough. Peace out.