Have you ever felt...

I have never felt as stupid, incompetent and insignificant in my whole life as I do right now. I literally had to keep myself from breaking down the entire way back from work.

My boss only works me one to two days a week, usually every other week or so. Well, there was a three month spot in there where I didn't work at all. And when I got back to work, everything was different.  Anyway, he taught me to make shakes and wraps today (things we never had on the menu before) but when I was leaving work he called me into his office and sat me down and told me I needed to pay better attention and stop being so slow.

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When I first started work and everything was normal he told me to stop getting the burgers out so fast because people would think they were pre-made. Now I'm not making them, wiping tables and doing dishes fast enough. During work today he made me feel like the WORST kind of idiot. He didn't like the strawberry shakes coloring so he made me leave and re-made it. Every time I'd walk by he'd stop talking to my co-worker, like they were talking about me. While I was cleaning the tables... he told me to clean the tables. He took 7 dollars in tips from this one table cause he served them. (we don't serve people for lunch, it's more like fastfood) but when I handed him a dollar from another table he brought food to he looked at me like I was stupid and put the money in the tip jar. When I worked at Disney world, I NEVER, NEVER felt so stupid and worthless and unable to do something...and Disney world was a lot more demanding. 

 He just keeps CHANGING everything! Every two weeks I go in and BOOM there's something new that I'm doing wrong. I'm going too slow, not slow enough. He looks at me funny when I don't laugh at his stupid jokes, he thinks we're so buddy buddy but we're not. I can't stand the guy. He watches me when I do everything, which makes me nervous, then OOPS I put half a spoonful too much of potato salad. OOPS, I forgot to check the disinfectants ph balance...which turned out to be perfect anyway. It's like he waits for me to fuck up. This stupid job is only paying me 20-30 dollars a week.....it's not even worth it. I already know I'm fucking fat, I don't need to feel fucking stupid too.