I'm not 100% sure how to feel right now. I'm 22, jobless, carless, and still living with my family. But at the same time I'm not a single mother (or a mother at all) I'm not hooked on drugs or other bad shit. And I'm not a gambler or anything like that. Still though, it's kind of depressing to think that it's been almost 5 years since I graduated and I have gone NO where...
I've only had two jobs, Disney World and a shitty burger place. BAH
I know the problem, and I'm trying to fix it. Location location location.
Anyway...Yeah. It's my birthday. um... yay me I suppose. I took my date off of facebook, so I'm gonna see how many of my friends remember on their own. So far...one.
Friday, June 10, 2011
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Yarr
Today's a good day. I'm 156, which is fine, I'm maintaining. If I'm a good girl today I could be 155 tomorrow morning. It's pretty nifty, oui. ^.^
I'm expecting a package today, and it says it's delivered, BUUUT I don't have it. Lol. I dunno, maybe mom didn't check the mail yet. If she did then I'll have it tomorrow. As long as it gets here.
I'm expecting a package today, and it says it's delivered, BUUUT I don't have it. Lol. I dunno, maybe mom didn't check the mail yet. If she did then I'll have it tomorrow. As long as it gets here.
Saturday, June 4, 2011
Bloody fantastic day =D
OKAY!! Today I slept in, amazing, then I got up. I'm 157 now...well I was this morning. I dunno about when I wake up again, we'll see, I was a super good girl today. ^.^
Anyway, I consecrated my Rune Stones and used them for the first time. I didn't ask a question really, I just let them fly. Here's what I got:
Woman
Wealth
Possessions
Poison
and Home
And here's what it ended up meaning =D
My friend Michelle (woman) ended up coming by with a bunch of books and tarot cards for me to have. (Wealth of possessions). But when I got them, my mom and sister were kinda like.... O.o wtf, you're weird dude. (poison, which is also slander and down talk, and Home.)
Isn't that COOL?! I didn't think it would really go much of anything, but that's SO cool!!!! They got over my being weird, so no worries, Lol.
Anyway, I consecrated my Rune Stones and used them for the first time. I didn't ask a question really, I just let them fly. Here's what I got:
Woman
Wealth
Possessions
Poison
and Home
And here's what it ended up meaning =D
My friend Michelle (woman) ended up coming by with a bunch of books and tarot cards for me to have. (Wealth of possessions). But when I got them, my mom and sister were kinda like.... O.o wtf, you're weird dude. (poison, which is also slander and down talk, and Home.)
Isn't that COOL?! I didn't think it would really go much of anything, but that's SO cool!!!! They got over my being weird, so no worries, Lol.
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
happy days
Yes, you are my ducky. <3
Anyway, Hi people. I'm 159. I'm going to fast until my birthday in 10 days because my Nana's traveling down the state to see me. Then when she leaves, I'll fast for another 5 days until the Full Moon. =) Seems like a good idea. I started at midnight today, sooo yeah.
Trying to think if there's anything else nifty enough to say. I don't think there is.
Anyway, Hi people. I'm 159. I'm going to fast until my birthday in 10 days because my Nana's traveling down the state to see me. Then when she leaves, I'll fast for another 5 days until the Full Moon. =) Seems like a good idea. I started at midnight today, sooo yeah.
Trying to think if there's anything else nifty enough to say. I don't think there is.
Thursday, May 26, 2011
I Promise
Okay, in my last post, my cute little ducky Vampire told me to not hate Christians. Well luv I Promise I'm never going to hate Christians. Just like when I was Christian I didn't hate the Jewish people or the Muslim people. ^.^
My family is Christian, as are my friends. The only "Christians" I don't like are the people in the Wesbro church. And that's cause...well...they're insane. I mean, heck, I'm not going to like anyone who wants to protest Obama visiting the poor souls in Joplin Missouri. Apparently this church says that the tornado was Gods way of punishing them for tolerating gay people or something like that.
Other than those people, I'm not going to hate Christians, Catholics, Jews, Muslims, Hindus, Buddhists...well anyone really. Lol. I wouldn't hate a whole religion of race. Only a few select people who choose to do horrible things. Like ...Hitler or something, haha. But no, thank you for bringing it up, luv. ^.^ <3<3
My family is Christian, as are my friends. The only "Christians" I don't like are the people in the Wesbro church. And that's cause...well...they're insane. I mean, heck, I'm not going to like anyone who wants to protest Obama visiting the poor souls in Joplin Missouri. Apparently this church says that the tornado was Gods way of punishing them for tolerating gay people or something like that.
Other than those people, I'm not going to hate Christians, Catholics, Jews, Muslims, Hindus, Buddhists...well anyone really. Lol. I wouldn't hate a whole religion of race. Only a few select people who choose to do horrible things. Like ...Hitler or something, haha. But no, thank you for bringing it up, luv. ^.^ <3<3
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
)o(
If anyone recognizes the sign in the title, then they should know what this post will be about. If not, well i'll fill you in.
It's a Wicca symbol. That's right. I'm throwing inhibition to the wind, I rented some books from the library and I'm going to become a Wiccan. It's kind of an amazing feeling actually, It's something that I can finally connect with after years of jumping from Christian church to church. Bah, was ridiculous.
The funny thing is, in Christianity they all said that God and Jesus was in me...but I never felt them. Ever. However I feel the Goddess like no other. I don't want to hurt my body with week long fasts and month long restricted days of only eating 500 calories. I want to be healthy because I represent someone so special and amazing. I'm thinking this might save my life some day. I'd just keep weakening myself until I had to go to the hospital, you know? I didn't WANT to be healthy. Now I have a reason to.
It's a Wicca symbol. That's right. I'm throwing inhibition to the wind, I rented some books from the library and I'm going to become a Wiccan. It's kind of an amazing feeling actually, It's something that I can finally connect with after years of jumping from Christian church to church. Bah, was ridiculous.
The funny thing is, in Christianity they all said that God and Jesus was in me...but I never felt them. Ever. However I feel the Goddess like no other. I don't want to hurt my body with week long fasts and month long restricted days of only eating 500 calories. I want to be healthy because I represent someone so special and amazing. I'm thinking this might save my life some day. I'd just keep weakening myself until I had to go to the hospital, you know? I didn't WANT to be healthy. Now I have a reason to.
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Unabridged, My before and after picture!!!
okay....yeah...you might not want to look, you'll die. -sigh-
This is me before, about 200 pounds. (remember I'm 5'9")
And the second is me recently. At a size 8. Between 155 and 160 pounds.
This is me before, about 200 pounds. (remember I'm 5'9")
And the second is me recently. At a size 8. Between 155 and 160 pounds.
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